Don’t Lose The Love

I am just extremely saddened by the negative energy that has been swooping past anyone and everyone, in the last few days. People just need to get a grip on themselves and RELAX. Paranoia never helped anyone and neither did screaming and getting frustrated for no reason, so just because you’re down in the dell doesn’t mean you have to pull others in there too.

This last year has been quite eventful for me personally, because I’ve done a lot and traveled far more than anyone else. I don’t care enough to divulge my memories and the shit that I’ve done because as of this moment, I’m alive and kicking, so there’s really no point pondering over what happened, what broke me or what fixed me. Because whatever happens, happens for the best.

I’m sick of devoting my psychological trips to understanding how other people would react or feel about what I’m doing, because honestly, if there’s anything I’ve realized, it’s that other people don’t feel this way. Why should I give a flying saucer about what I do if it’s not even meant to affect anyone and if others do not spend time thinking how I’d react to something they did.

Just do whatever the fuck you want and feel good about yourself because there’s really nothing else left to each passing day. I’m sick of people asking me where I am and what I’m doing and I should make a plan. I don’t want to meet anybody unless they want to meet me because it’s not really some sort of favour I’m doing by letting people know stuff that doesn’t even bother them at the end of the day.

I don’t care whether or not this revelation is going to cost me a social scenario because please let’s just calm down and look at the situation this way; how many people really bother to find out how you are, and I don’t mean just a hello on the phone. I’ve been bleeding senseless for the last ten days and almost had alien objects operated off my body and been stressed out by random doctors saying random nonsense and having some of the worst moments back in my college semester what with trying to keep up with making people happy and dealing with their immaturity.

So really, I’ve had my share of nonsense too, but I like to be positive and happy about it. Because even though the bad stuff is all I remember and it assists my migraines in popping out every now and then, I still remember how happy I felt looking at the open sky and stars and listening to Karthik and Kazim screaming Star Wars dialogues and pretending to be Jedis. Even though moments before that trip, I was worried about other people’s emotions, completely undermining my own.

I’m done with the drama and I’m happily living each day with subconscious sobriety. And in order to probe into your subconscious, you need help. Please do that research on your own, because I am not a therapist.

Please do contact me in case you’re looking for a mutually beneficial good time. Because after all, I’m just another individual looking in hopeless corners for happiness. And honestly, there are VERY few people in this world who have been able to inculcate those powers within themselves.

To all those who have stuck by me through thick and thin and will hopefully remember my birthday enough to put through a call (because I’m getting charged on roaming too, so let’s see who’s gonna be selfish) I salute you and it feels extremely warm in some corner of me, to be your true friend. And that list isn’t really a lot, and I’m glad it’s that way.

x EdgyShark x

P.S If you’re not happy with where you are then change it because you’re not a freaking tree.

A Very Berry Christmas

I can’t believe I just lost my carton of very berry strawberry ice cream with real chunks of strawberries.

Merry christmas to you too.

x EdgyShark x

My Very Worst Roommate

I think I could write an entire FML book on the person I’m living with right now. She is a disgrace to community. Enough said.

I don’t think switching on a fan in the month of December amounts to being a big deal; what’s so ‘pragmatic’ about that!? It’s always summer time in Australia in December, surely people DO switch on fans at the time? Also, I would consider switching it off if her obscene voice didn’t drift all the way from the other side of the room screaming disgusting moans and god knows what to four different suitors at all times of the night.

It’s extremely easy to portray hate towards her because of her sheer stupidity. You could compare her voice to the sound of five trolls farting and you can only guess who’s going to win that melodious competition. She looks like a psychotic version of the she-hulk. (YUCK!)

It’s a good thing this house has many more rooms because I don’t plan on seeing her face ever again if I can help it.

She’s the reason I can’t even hear the voices in my head anymore because I’m so sickened by learning the various things one can do while being in the company of other people who you don’t even know.

Don’t even get me started on the cleanliness factor.

x EdgyShark x

Vive Le Chuck!

I had a mini cardiac arrest five minutes ago as soon as Lily’s eyes began watering when Serena asked about Chuck.  If he dies, a little part of me dies too.

I cannot stop crying inside. Chuck, you’ve saved my life a million times. It was you that consoled me when that horrible bitch put K in trouble back in 2009.

I think my pulse just stopped. And my face is white.

Please don’t die :’(

Please stay strong :’( :’(

 

x EdgyShark x

Got Milk? Keep It To Yourself.

In recent developments: I’ve begun to hate my workplace, and love kitties a little more. I gave my creative skills a twist by making myself a tres cool BB cover. Kids that make a lot of noise, don’t go well [AT ALL!] with my ego and I’m beginning to rethink my Disprin decisions now. (and it’s a different story that as soon as I found my earphones, they disappeared from the house.)

They uploaded the new academic calendar for the next session at R@wr-Town! and it SUCKS that the new term commences from the 2nd of Jan itself. As if I’m going to be there. Thank goodness I’ve studied contracts already, I’ll give my Fam Law a headstart as well, but not to bore you.

The other day, a cousin grandmother, full of a very robust attitude, forced herself upon me and made me drink a glass of milk. Lactose intolerant I screamed as hard as I could, but to no avail. Every single person sitting at the table knew that my face would have probably exploded because I haven’t touched milk since February.

 Except, she had a solution for that as well. I kept pleading that I would drink low fat yogurt instead, and one cup of milk was really not going to do me any good. Besides, NO ONE ELSE MAKES THE RULES!

Anyway, she made me drink the goop, and i almost puked my guts out. But obviously, I had to maintain a non blue face, and I wasn’t even treated with Vodka Penne Pasta after.

x EdgyShark x

Donut Hole Day

Today has just been as empty as a donut hole. Thus, the title. Now that I’ve given that away, here’s a disadvantage about owning a BlackBerry™ with BlackBerry™ services. The other day I was spending time on the metro (not really spending time, more trying to get to VK) and I got so engrossed BBMing my brother that I missed my station and then had to take the reciprocating train back.

It just took me one sentence to write that, but trust me, at the time in my head, it felt like an entire blog post. With lots of exclamation marks. I think it’s because I’m feeling kind of empty at the moment.

So in order to feel a little more important, Im going to proceed to pick up a heavy book with a heavy title on the front and read it till I get distracted by the new look of my own blog. (Don’t look at me like that, I’m being honest about something everyone does )

Isn’t it lovely, the blog I mean? I took all morning in the office to give it a makeover and honestly, I feel like I’ve done some productive work!

Also, there’s a little gallery at the bottom of the sidebar where I’ll be updating recent photographs, so now you know I’m really trying to get back on track and interact with all you guys out there. I can be awesome too

x EdgyShark x