Flyin’ High

I love airplanes. I think they’re one of man’s greatest inventions. Actually, I like the whole feel of being even close to an airport. The drive to the airport’s always fun, the entire atmosphere of an airport is so exciting, it gives me a sugar rush. Sometimes, when inside a craft, I wish I just stay there high in the air and keep enjoying the music on my laptop without any interference. (Except, I’ve never been on those crazy trans-continental flights, so I think I should stop wishing to be stuck in mid air!)

But then, I love it when people arrive, or I go somewhere else. And wander.

Have a happy touchdown, K.

x EdgyShark x

Trumping The Positive

You can only hope that the world you’re living in, is something that you’re actually living. What if everything around you is nothing but a projection of your own subconscious? What if everything that you’re actually living, turns out to be a lie?

But you wouldn’t know, would you? Because it’s the power of the mind, you’re very own subconscious that’s feeding these thoughts into you like a parasite. You can’t resist it, and on another level you do not even want to resist it. It’s playing a trick on you, something for which you might have to pay a very high price for later.

But you can’t stop what it’s doing to you, because on another level, you want it to continue. Because after all, it is but you’re mind and your thoughts that are causing it to do whatever it is that it is doing, thinking about.

Where does reality begin? Is it where the artificial world ends?

Everything is what you think it to be. Projections of your own subconscious, something that is beyond the control of your grasp when you’re awake, but perfectly in tandem with your emotions when you’re in a state of dormancy. It’s ironic, isn’t it? How you’re able to control something better when you’re not doing anything?

At least you think you’re not doing anything, but is that the truth? Who knows what’s happening when your eyes are shut to the world. The world you think you live in.

You think.

But you don’t know for sure.

Every single time a positive emotion takes over your mind, it is bound to take place in reality unless it becomes ill equipped with bouts of negativity. There is no one capable of making you think out what could be even if it is not what is meant to be. What has to happen, will happen. But isn’t that something that you can control?

Water will flow, the sun will shine. Those aren’t things that you can take care of, but are things that could be present in your world. What if I told you there is nothing of that sort in my world? My world where things happen how I want them to.

My world, where whatever I wish takes place. Things I do not even know I wish for, happen. Because even if it is my existence, your existence, you’re thinking about that each and every projection and how it goes about it’s daily routine.

And at the end of the day, when you come back and lie down on your pillow, it’s the time when you don’t think about a single figment of your mind, but what it is that affects you and how it is that affects you. Melts you down, makes you stronger, stranger.

And at that moment, everything seems real, until you fall into a state of bliss again. Not knowing what is going to happen next, or what might have been had you not fallen prey to your own self.

Your greatest enemy, your best friend.

The only thing that you shoudl treat like God, yet you invite foreign particles into your thinking and slowly, with time, fool yourself into believing that you are not the sole entity of your own existence.

It is then that you invite trouble. In order to take the lime light off yourself and not be the center of attention. Gradually and eventually, you begin to treat yourself as the enemy and forget where you commenced. You forget that even though you might not be the most vital aspect of the universe, but you are the single most important thing of your own existence.

And that is all that matters, because who is to say that the others around you are not real but are actually your imagination?

But you will never know that, even when at the last moment, it all comes scathing in a rush to tell you that it’s your last chance to survive in the game.

x EdgyShark x

Mad Heart, Be Brave

You can rip open

My skin and bones and view

The Brave Heart that lies underneath and courage; old and new

You might be, It does not matter

to me what you think because I know what lies in there,

I am, after all, made of it and nothing else, shall deter

me from feeling what I want to unless it is you;

Because you are something I respect, admire and love,

And it is you who I will never be able to turn face

From. Scare me, make me worthy and entitled for the

Red that lies within your insanity; Treat

Me like a ballast, your race track so true and I

Will balance, and I will affirm to the commitment I have created

As you heard my weak heart, and made it mad

With pride,

Like a series of chicanes accredits you to

Feint and collide, So you will too,

With the weak heart inside, no longer strangely

Vague and without reason; Because it has the will

To change on the pole, At mid-day, or night, whenever you will it;

Because the will you protect inside protests not for yourself but

For mine.

x EdgyShark x

Too Little Time, Too Much Drama

I feel like I’m running against time again, and guess what? It’s these times that are the most fun! I’m leaving for vacation in two days, and there’s just so much to be bought and so much else to be done. I can’t believe I’m finally going to be leaving for a good three weeks of fun and a crazy long extended weekend.

Jinx and I’ve promised to do all kinds of crap this time, meet all kinds of random people, which include all our “friends” that live there on the facebook friend list, go crazy shopping, and explore all kinds of new places on our own. Okay, the last part is just me, but then I’m sure I’ll make the others do it with me too I can’t wait to sit by the beautiful sunrise yet again at PDP, hike down different roads and meet different people. Experiment with newer things and have some good, pure, fun.

And something tells me that this trip to Mumbai is going to be the best yet

All that, and the drama too.

x EdgyShark x

Merci Beaucoup!

YR! My heartiest thanks to you! Although that might sound a little too formal and everything, you have no idea HOW happy you’ve made me with all the news from yesterday! What you did was the most amazing thing anyone’s done for me in a long, long time. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Also, the best deed ever done in all of 2010

Like I said, I don’t forget these little little things, so you’re in my awesome list now, and you’ll receive the eternal-grateful-thank-you-type-priority-dealing with! Because otherwise I would have just been nice to you, as you are so nice yourself

*HAPPY-NESS!*

x EdgyShark x

Anything But The Butt!

This is some exciting information for all you women out there. Or not!

It just so happens, that if a guy asks you to walk in front of him, especially if you’re walking up the marble staircase, it doesn’t mean that he’s being chivalrous!

Sure, chivalry might not be dead. But the next time your man opens a door for you, or asks you to walk in front on the road, it’s not because he doesn’t want you to die because of that speeding maniac, it’s because he wants to look at … YOUR BUTT!!!

(This is the point where you go “Oooooh!”)

x EdgyShark x

Uncouth Sophistication

I’ve never been as wild in a restaurant before as I was today. And once I began going crazy, I wondered why I should stop anyway.

x EdgyShark x

Extreme. Exhilaration. Emotion

It’s only when you experience all three together that you fall into this different world.

It’s happened to me. A couple of times maybe sometime ago. Everything then begins to feel achievable. And I feel it now. I don’t know what’s triggered this emotion but I do know that everytime I do feel it, I don’t want to stop.

I will now take a moment to admit and not hang my head in shame, the fact that I also like a Taylor Swift song.

Crap, now my Godfather’s never going to do beer rounds with me.

x EdgyShark x

Brain With A Hole

That’s what you get when you eat too much polo and then drink water on top of it. Caution: Extremely hazardous, but please try at home if you feel like getting high and have no access to alcohol.

Pragya and I, both anyway have brains with big holes in them, that’s how retarded we are. And then it just evokes so much nonsense out of our mouths. By the end of the evening, while leaving the amazing jazz concert that I went to with Sunayan, I started receiving these weird texts.

And then I got so excited because I thought I have yet another secret admirer. Read, yet. Haha. Obviously I didn’t reply to jibberish like “You looked so hot today” and “This is regarding your stupendous performance in the spelling bee. We appreciate talent.”

You’re an EVIL Godfather! Hahaha, and I appreciate your talent at sending me such weirdo texts and making me believe I’m awesome. Anyway, it was getting creepy, so I don’t blame you for giving the secret away, finally.

x EdgyShark x

Rainbows And Butterflies

Of course it’s not always rainbows and butterflies, but it can be right?

It’s when people bring egos in that things start turning awry. But of course, you can’t and shouldn’t change yourself anyway. And really, I don’t know what ‘getting excited’ means. But thanks for ticking the hell out of me by telling me I need patience.

Maybe you could just try living with the fact that I am impatient. Also, try the dictionary for difficult and stubborn while you’re on the letter ‘I’.

Maybe I should just go back to chasing rainbows and butterflies.

x EdgyShark x